So, it’s been a while. March 13th I got the news that my grandma had passed away. We made travel plans, canceled anniversary plans, flew to Texas, drove to Arkansas, did funeral things, helped my grandpa take care of some stuff around the house. Now that there’s not much else for me to do, I’m mostly just at a loss for words. Trying to apply my grandma’s advice regarding words: “leave my Hannah alone, she’ll talk when she wants to.”
Since you can’t press pause on the world, I have been keeping up with normal things while slowly returning to normal-ish. I caught up on lab and class work. I came back to the blog last week with this cake, because when you don’t know what to say, you feed people. I started a bunch of seeds for the garden, and took stock of the damage to my supposedly-perennial herbs. (Only the sage survived. I suspect the partial melt/refreeze cycle we got a lot this winter did a number on the others.)
Oh, and I ran….some. Remember how I signed up for a 12K trail race? It is coming up on Sunday. I still have not run farther than 5.5 (road) miles. I just got back to a normal-ish running schedule (meaning 3 runs in the week) last week. I’m sure the race will be great though…at least the first 4-5 miles of it. I’m just hoping it’s less muddy and slushy than my last attempt at trail running, when I gave up and moved to the road. But at least it was a hilly dirt road, so kinda like a trail?
I’ll have a race recap next week…assuming I don’t want to block the experience from memory. (I doubt I will though.)
Do you process things by talking with other people, or with your internal monologue?
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I’m so sorry about your grandma. I hope your memories will give you comfort.
Oh Hannah, I am so sorry to hear about your grandma 😔 losing a loved one is so hard.
Good luck for your race this Sunday! Here’s hoping the weather is good for you!
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I’m so sorry for your loss. :[ I often wish I could press pause on life so I could just take a break from things and catch up, but alas. Sending you lots of hugs. <3
Great job on getting some running in! I really hope the weather decides not to be a hater soon.
Yes, where is that pause button?
I’m sorry for your loss Hannah. We also had a devastating loss in our family recently. One thing I’ve learned is that we all process our feelings in a different way and they are all ok. It has helped me to be around my friends and get back to normal activities. Thinking of you
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I’m sorry for your loss. I agree, normal activities help.
I am very sorry for your loss. I think I do both — internal & external. My family is rather bipolar — my mom being rather stoic & my dad being demonstrative. I think I fall somewhere in between.
Obviously, I’m not much into snow trails. 🙂 In fact, there’s a trail series that just started up in these parts, which I still haven’t made it to because it’s still so cold most days. 🙁
While I’m fine with the snow trails….slush trails are another matter.
I’m so sorry to hear about your grandmother. I’m sending love and hugs and lots of luck for your upcoming race.
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I’m so sorry for your loss. I know it can even be heartbreaking trying to get the surviving spouse to adjust to a new normal. I hope your grandpa is doing okay.
I have internal (and external) dialog with my self every day on my drive home from work…haha
Thank you. One of my brothers lives with my grandpa currently, and most of my family is nearby. So he is well taken care of though I’m sure not exactly okay.